By Camaray Davalos
The locus of your discomfort
The anima of your grandmother (Who you constantly look for in others but will never openly admit)
Patron saint of humble-brag who tugs, tickles, traps your attention
Patron saint of second thoughts and less self-affection
The fruit of what you lack
The reflection of your other half
The questions you don’t ask (“Are you okay?”)
The color of apathy
Queen of Nothing and Everything
Queen of Regrets and Risk-Taking
The reason you get turned on
The reason you get turned off (Is probably because she said something that made you feel more inadequate than you were taught to accept)
Mother least amiable
Mother most traditional
Mother most assimilated
Mother of native girl laying across a cold bathroom floor
Mother of native girl who was date raped
Mother of native girl burnt with a cigarette on her cheek at the hands of her ex (Who to this day still doesn’t know why you used to cancel plans)
Goddess of unrequited love for herself
Goddess of wit that whisks like a wing (Summon her by leaving offerings of dahlias and prickly pear)
Self-repair extraordinaire
Self-sacrificing shungáal
Selfish woman
The reason she pares her words to perry your questions
The reason she’s so good at deception
The reason you think she’s boring (because fewer words are better than ones she’ll regret)
The other side of her face
The other side of the story.